Sunday, September 30, 2007

What is an 'inconvenience'?

BTW, 'friends' are now approaching 1000, though I haven't been online as much as 'would have liked' lately. Laughing and smiling create better energy, and crying doesn't help anyway. We may as well laugh; nothing is 'forever'. Yes we are often traumatized and must mourn; the latter is how we survive and function. Someday, more will understand. Just wasn't expecting this one, either, yet this is part of the journey.

Before I forget, as this is related to the original post that inspired in part the conception of this blog, the Global Initiative, or CGI convened at the U.N. this past week at a place that was also 'local'. However, as was the schedule not unlike what was described in the original post, I was needed elsewhere. Upon seeing the former president speaking with one of the most popular talk show hosts recently before this took place, I looked up what he had described on Google, though not diligently or persistently, and hadn't found anything. If I had, I may have found a way to be a part of it in some small way, or get together with some who were, had I known it was happening soon on a date not far off.

Apparently, this was not meant to be. Do I feel like I lost out? No. Some things are harder to grasp or comprehend than others, though for the most part (I'm told and often agree), that things happen for a reason. A 'fire was lit' under someone who was there, while I was 'tending to business' in places required elswhere in the city. From what they learned or were moved to action on at the U.N. was groundwork for our eventually getting together.

Some of the individuals who attended are already of acquaintance, others are not. Team members always accomplish more by being able to be in more than one place at once. Likewise, another group was also meeting in my mother's state; I was still needed and required here. It's only a matter of time before those there and I will be assessing where we go from here with common goals and visions; the latter is what brings us together. Who we are is joined by moving toward the same, meeting where those roads join, sooner or later. I'm just wondering at this moment who that I've already met were at which location while I also moved forward on the 'home front', not that this is really 'home' by literal description; it will be for those who choose so, and I see all of us smiling and laughing in concert with many children when the ribbon is cut in front of their new home: a place of hope, freedom, and promise.

What else to laugh about? Back to the start of today's post: what was done to stick to the commitment of making it for this month was a bit 'unusual'; could have been worse, like going to yet another borough had this one not had a library open on Sundays: a 'throwback' to where we were about two years ago, with only internet access from a library. We've been told than anyone can 'make it' on the internet, even if one doesn't own one at home or at a private place with unlimited time. I applaud those who say this in many places, though in locales like New York City, even giving someone in need at a critical time something like a free vehicle can have its drawbacks or 'downside'. Owning a car in a place like this is as often as not yet another 'high maintenance' proposition, as it's as expensive to maintain as rent costs in other parts of the country.

For related reasons, whereas it might be easy elsewhere in the US to maintain &/or build a website, do research, &/or successfully launch an online business from a public library; in a place like New York City when time permits there is only a maximum of an hour for any one session, and sometimes the wait can be hours (which I haven't done; when this happened, that's another day offline). My heart is again reminded of those now where we once were, as we laugh and smile as much as possible at the twists and turns along the way: like finding out the hard way that a computer has a lifespan, or not knowing the warning signs that time is limited for a full backup. Had gone so far as to get the drive to copy all painstakingly created files, just waiting for a block of time that permitted the transfer. Then one morning with no warning, 'friend' computer would no longer come on. Six years of work now wait for a data recovery specialist to return them to their creator. Today isn't the day, for that.

What not having our 'special friend' in the house 'caused' was a long walk in the neighborhood for new discoveries on one of the remaining beautiful days of late summer/early fall, when I might otherwise have been inside online, still approaching the 'turning point' for what will be shared with others as a result of this journey. We will make sure that it won't take others as long to reach their days of freedom; we had this journey first to carve the way for others, as others have before us for what we now take for granted. It's times like this that 'gratitude' means everything in terms of how we respond; how I would have done so at this time when things were so much worse would have been different. We can all make things different, just by 'seeing through different eyes', according to 'where we are'. I'm laughing and smiling today whenever possible, grateful for those I love who know so, and those who feel the same for me and others.

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