Happy Spring?

It's too cold for too long in this part of the country, though I feel there is no basis in complaining given the extreme devastating weather conditions that have taken lives and homes in the last week alone, with more storms predicted on the horizon. I remain grateful for not being further affected by yet another storm, and sensitive to what others may be going through. As not all family is with me, this is also a source of anxiety, and a reminder that safety can often be an illusion, because no one can escape the wrath of nature.

A main concern is how much of this is man made from climate change and decades of abuse to the environment. What can we do to minimize or offset this? It's too late for some, and too often greed overrides the value of human life. So long as there is no accountability, someone will try to get what they can even knowing it can take someone's life as a result of their potential gain. These were once someone's children (individuals who infringe on others' lives without remorse), who learned from someone else that taking from others is normal and acceptable, with no basis for comparison such as a capacity for compassion or empathy.

Our children belong to everyone, and we are hurting ourselves by looking the other way when we witness children being taught that winning at all costs has consequences that can hurt them and others at some point, if not immediately. Authority has no meaning if who seeks and maintains power has no conscience for the consequences of their actions. It will have to end sooner or later, though how many will suffer and die before the rest of us stop looking the other way and start stepping up. It isn't someone else's job to fix. Anyone not taking action is a helping bystander. It's not a new concept; it's been around for generations, and it would appear every generation has a large population that is not open or exposed to what is natural law. Short term gain only renders long term loss when only in the interest of those who think only for themselves at the expense of others.

State of Overwhelm

The end of the month was a Monday, that should be enough, though it isn't. Anytime the last day of the month is missed on 'Blog Day' there is too much going on for one person. Namely me. My child is the eye of the storm, in a good way, and it has been said the eye of the storm is the calmest place, which is not always true either.

I'm supposed to be wrong in saying a child can be the center of my universe, though if it were not for that child the Universe would not be what it is. Everything I do now is because of having become a parent, with experiences many parents cannot imagine, and that I would not wish on a so-called enemy. Everything that happens is already on top of something else. Some would say a chose this; if there's a parallel universe, the explanation is there. I don't have it at the moment. I have to be thankful no matter what, because someone else always has it worse. If nothing else, that is what the experience has taught me. That is no consolation, however, when what has happened involves one's only child that should not ever happen at all. To date, there has been no accountability, and what help was sought at the most critical time made things much worse, that has now compounded over time and the damages are irreversible. To stay positive or focused during such a years-long real life nightmare and remaining sane is a feat in and of itself. Handling others' similar experiences as a vocation is one way, though the vicarious trauma without anothers' being resolved is often simply too much to handle. Rest will not solve it, though it will allow for thoughts and processing that during other moments can be impossible. In this physical experience, there are limits. And the freedom to think productively can be critical.

Still others have it worse, and no matter how many times it's said, there is no consolation.